I've been trying to diversify, get some freelance work, but it's slow and unreliable. I have to have a cushion to work from, no matter how low I get my expenses. (And they are loooowww, let me tell you.)
The worst part is the constant feeling that I should be Doing Something. The feeling that I need to get up at like 2 am and get to work on some brilliant piece of online marketing that will make my campaign go viral and launch it into the stratosphere. I always feel like the perfect thing is just out of reach. This is coupled by the incompatible feeling that there is nothing I can do. This is the wrong idea, the wrong time, people are sick of my bullshit, or are just broke for whatever reason. I don't know, and it's like a puzzle I can never solve.
So instead I come on LJ and complain about it, because, well, hardly anybody will see it here, but it feels better than just not saying it at all.
EDIT: I am looking back through and I am just like "holy shit I write a whiny post like this every time don't I?" Feel free to ignore me. Sheesh.